See You Soon

It has been a few weeks since I have last written and for that I apologize. I have spent the past two weeks living out of my green, polka dot suitcase in Somewhere, Texas; spending my days eating enchiladas like they were going out of style and holding the newest addition to our family, my baby cousin. Yes indeed I was HOME for Christmas! Don't you just love Christmas breaks? No school, no work, laying around all day with the man you love most in this world. Sounds perfect huh? Unfortunately, it all ended just a little too quickly.

You would think after all of these years of short term visits that I would be used to packing up my things, say goodbye, then head on my way as if it were simply business. That, however, is not the case...at all. I am attached, I am as sentimental as they come, and most importantly, I am in love. Therefore, no matter how many times I have to say goodbye, or in Chris and I's words, "See you soon," it never gets easier. It is both emotionally and physically exhausting spending your days missing the person you love most in the world.

So, as an update on where I am now: I have now traded in my old suitcase for my own closet, and have gone from inside jokes with family members and friends to blank stares from fellow classmates. And for the past few days of being at home I have been completely at loss for what to do with my time. I have not focused on this semesters classes or even thought twice about preparing for work this Friday. No, I have been letting my mind slip into thoughts of loss and worry. My time is now consumed of thinking how much I miss Chris and my family, and most importantly-how much I wish I could already start the rest of my life with him. Life would be if we lived in the same town. Wait, town? I'd settle for the same state! So, I tell you this, if it were up to me, we would never have to say goodbye to anyone we love. We would not have to worry about long distance relationships or living in a different state than our family and friends. But since I am in a long distance relationship and my family and friends do live in a different  state, I ask you this, appreciate those you get to see everyday. Let them know you love them and don't take the time you have with them for granted. And while you are doing all of this...I will be making my countdown until the next time I see them, starting...NOW...

THREE MONTHS AND ONE DAY.